I think it's finally hit me that I (we) are empty nesters. I came home today, put the groceries up and sat down with the dogs. I read a bit, took a nap, put up clean dishes.....just piddled about. Went out to the garden and watered - and it hit me. I'm an empty nester. No kid to pick up anymore. No band or theatre schedule to live and die by. No worrying about what time my kid is going to be home from work or their friend's houses. I still have Life360 on them and know where they are but it's different now. I was more nervous about their whereabouts when they lived at home then I am now that they are in Washington. It's just bizarre. And then there are the socks. My socks don't come up missing anymore. My kid was constantly gaslighting me about my socks but no bullshit - since they left I'm not ordering socks off of Amazon because mine were disappearing. Seriously. It's like a new world.
I'm also eating a sandwich for dinner. And drinking a bottle a wine. Guess that's also a result of being an empty nester. I'm slowly getting used to not cooking. I always cooked for an army since we had a teenage boy in the house and it was a hard habit to break. Then I was cooking for three but I still cooked like there were five of us. Gary and I are slowly adapting to being by ourselves and not making enormous meals. It's hard sometimes. Food is my love language and I want to feed everyone that I love. Or like. Go away if I don't like you. I won't feed you.
I've got one final exam to take. I've finished my extra credit research studies and the exam in Psychology and the Law is all I have left. I went on a semi-tangent on last Thursday's shitshow about the criminal justice system. Bottom line - don't get in trouble. And, NEVER, EVER speak without an attorney present. EVER. I MEAN EVER PEOPLE. Our system is so fucked up. So fucked up. Just don't do it. Anyways....I've thoroughly enjoyed this semester. Summer semester starts May 30th. I'm so excited. ABNORMAL PSYCHOLOGY IS ON THE SCHEDULE!!! I can't wait, ya'll! My fall semester is going to be fire. I'm just so ate up with school, ya'll. I love it. I just want to stay in school and keep learning. It makes me so damn happy.
My garden is doing amazing. I'm so happy with how everything is looking and even with all of the rain we've been getting, I'm still watering just about every day. I don't normally use pesticides but bugs have been bad this year. I dusted everything with Sevin Dust. Sometimes you do what you have to do. I bought a veggie wash to clean my veggies just to be on the safe side. I don't sell them at Farmer's Market and if I give them to the neighbors or family, I always let them know what's on them.
That's really all I have for ya'll. It's a Tuesday and I've had my wine, I've watered my garden and it's been a good night. I need to study for my test and stay on top of orders this week. We are going to St. Jo in a few weeks to cook chili and see HAYES CARLL HELL YEAH and then to Jamaica Beach. I'm not sure if I'll even cook chili while I'm there. The water may be too much of a temptation for me. We are taking Muriel, my 1974 Lark and Lemmy and Waylon. This should be fun.
Kelly
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